Post by spencerkeaton on Jun 2, 2010 23:31:39 GMT -6
THE TRUTH COMES OUT IN THE BREAKDOWNS
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Michael
I wanted to let you know how much I love you. You are my night in shining armor and have been since we were fourteen. I wish I could say my moving won't change anything between us, but it will and you know that. The distance is to far for either of us to reach, and it's bad enough to have to pretend like I'm going to be okay. I don't exactly know where this note is going, or if it will make any since at all. I just want you to know that you are and always will be my first true love. I don't want you to think that just because when I leave I don't want us to talk anymore that I don't care, I do, I just don't want that pain of knowing how much I had to give up, how much you had to give up. Michael if you could promise me one thing, could you promise me that you'll never stop believing in yourself, always know that you are a good guy, and that you can change, and I'll always believe in you, even if i'm not here to show it. But you do have your sister, and she loves you, and unlike me is there for you, always. Drugs have become something that you've grown close to, but I know deep down you hate it, and I want you to do what you know and feel is right. Please don't let us ending be the reason you go back down into the gutter. There is another girl out there for you, someone who will love you like me, someone who will never leave your side. Michael, I love you, forever. I will think of you as many times as I see the stars and all those times I think of you I'll cry, and every time I'll hope you are doing good, and I'll hope that you have moved on and have forgotten about me. Something I will never, but I really hope you do someday. So goodbye to five years of endless night, goodbye to our kisses and out fights, goodbye to the past, make you future, I know it's going to be good.
I will love you always and forever Michael Spencer Keaton.Love Emili Star Louis
Spencer clenched the piece of paper in his hands fighting back the erg to yell in anger, pain, and frustration. The night air was cold against his painfully hot face, and the wind pushed his hair from side to side. He didn't get how one person could break so many promises so fast. Spencer knew (well thought he knew) she had never loved him, not like he loved her, and for that he will never let himself love anyone ever again, well Alyssa, but she was blood so that didn't count in his eyes.
Watching stars fall across the sky Spencer sat down and began to fold the note that he had read over and over again back in his pocket. It was a pity he couldn't get rid of it, it was just a meaningless note, or for most it would have been, but sadly that note was one of the things that just kept Spencer going, the thought of getting rid of it made him want to hit someone, or thing, which was what he had been trying to avoid. That and contact with an actual person, he didn't much want either of those things. Even though it was undeniable that the lack of social contact was bad for his health, bad for anyone's health really. Then again, Spencer was on drugs six out seven days of the week and that couldn't be good for his health, so what did anything else really matter? He was alive and at this point functional, or well for the most part. So it was pretty much all good.
"I really need to fix my pathetic life, if you can even call it that." Spencer said his English accent feeling the empty night.[b][color=5c9b63]" this is you speaking! "[/color][/b]
[color=5c9b63]" this is someone else speaking! "[/color]
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